Its not been a bad couple of weeks all in all. I have had one set back though regarding my anti-androgen implant. I went to the doctors last Tuesday and apparently they don't fit the implant. It's not an anti transition thing as he did say that he'd be happy to prescribe the anti-androgen in another form. They just won't fit the implant. I've called the GIC and they are trying to sort something out so hopefully normal service will be resumed soon.
Now I'm into my second year of the Real Life Test my thoughts are moving towards the surgery. I'm a year away from seeing the surgeon for my second opinion but it's no surprise that I'm thinking about going under the knife now. It is the biggest thing on my 'to do' list so to speak. I'm really scared about it if I'm being completely honest. That's not to say that I'm not looking forward to it or that I'm having second thoughts about it. The op is something that I need to go through but I'll be a lot happier after it. The 8 weeks holiday will be nice too lol. I'm kinda hoping that it happens around November 2012 so I can have Christmas off but I'm thinking that it could be around August 2012.
The fear that I mentioned before is strange as it comes and goes. The other night I was in work when suddenly I felt a pang of terror as my mind wandered. It happens every so often and is quite unsettling. I think that if I wasn't scared about it then I wouldn't be human.
3 comments:
Any operation scares me. I had too many as a child.
I think being scared of it shows that you have your head screwed on right!
Stace
My only fear would be the boredom of the initial recovery and I used to do anything to avoid pain and could not even bring myself to take an aspirin for a headache!
Time will fly to your op I am sure.
Nerves are to be expected and perfectly natural. Suggests you're thinking about it from all angles
Lucie xx
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