Every now and then something happens to remind me that life is passing me by. I'm not getting all depressed so don't worry. I have a lot to look forward to and I'm more than happy to be alive. I'm just realising that I'm in the Transgender purgatory of Pre-Op. I'm not woman and I'm not man, just an inbetween hybrid of the two. I've not been able to have laser for a couple of months due to financial reasons so the lack of progress on that front is bound to effect me. I also have a severe lack of a social life. I never get invited to anywhere and I'm not blaming anyone for that. I'm perhaps to blame for being TG. Who wants to be seen with a Transexual?
I need some kind of social life, that much is evident. I've got a car now so getting out and about isn't a problem anymore. I do have friends within the trans community too although they are pretty well spread around the country. Manchester is a 2 hour drive away otherwise I'd be out on Canal Street a lot more. BNO in Milton Keynes is also a big thing on my list and I'm hoping to get down there for a night later on in the year. I think that maybe I still need the 'scene' and perhaps have dismissed it a bit too soon. I don't need it so much for the novelty value, more for the reason I needed it 3 years ago. I need to know that I'm not alone on this TG journey.
3 years ago I had my first night out, no my first TIME out as Emma. For new readers to this blog, it was a night out on Canal Street in Manchester. It was a great night out and it kinda set things up to where they are now. It seems like a lifetime away now. It was a year later that I'd get out as Emma for a second time, again on Canal Street. It's now been a year since my last venture onto that famous street. Back then I had a social life, friends and now I don't really. I'm happy in myself, I'm happy in my work, I'm happy in life. The one thing missing is other people and a life away from family and work. I love my family to bits but you need things away from it, something else.
2 comments:
Emma, what happened to ALL your old friends?
Find your way Dahn Sarf to one of Dawn's do's! :)
Reading this I was reminded of Lisa, she of "Wow, the start of my new life" fame who's taken up salsa dancing to fill the same void. Is there something like that you could have a go at?
Thinking back to my late twenties as a scruffy bloke, I remember I had a lonely period as I drifted apart from most of my university friends. I did slowly find a new circle who have proved to be of a much closer and more durable nature.
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